...and I am an Idolator.
As a social worker who is very familiar with The Twelve Steps of Alcoholics Anonymous...a tool that has expanded to be of great help with a myriad of addictions...this is the first step.
We admitted we were powerless over _______________, and our lives had become unmanageable.So I admit it. I am an Idolator. No, I do not worship statues or bow down to images. But I have come to realize that I have "idols of the heart" that Ezekiel 14 talks about.
This summer I read a book by Dee Brestin, Idol Lies: Facing the Truth About Our Deepest Desires. It still remains with me, along with a virtual Bible study in I'm presently involved in, that emphasizes how true change comes from renewing our mind. (Romans 12:2a)
So what are my idols? They are universally the same, yet manifest themselves differently in each of our lives. Because we run to these idols, instead of running to the Person who wants to meet those needs Himself, our lives produce habitual sin that we think will bring us what we worship, what we pursue, what we run to, and what we focus on.
So what are those things to which we run? Dee lists them succinctly.
- Affirmation from/approval of others
Wow...that makes it simple, doesn't it? Simple, yet so difficult.
Over this next month I hope to become more transparent and take you along on this journey with me. God wants to meet our deepest desires and to enjoy the abundance of fruit our pursuit of Him produces. But we must change our thinking.
I'll close today with a prayer from Paul Tripp's devotional, Whiter Than Snow: Meditations on Sin and Mercy.
I am too skilled
to make me feel okay
about what I think
what I desire
what I say
what I do.
I am too defensive...
In the holy of holies,
where I stand naked,
all covering gone,
may You do there,
what I cannot do...
May you create in me
a clean heart.