Three months ago,
I was put to the test and sustained major spiritual heart surgery. I was very overwhelmed at work, having been
in three days of mandatory training over two weeks. During that time a boatload of new
applications and consults came in waiting for me.
I tend to be very task oriented and focused, but I do enjoy having a
little breathing room so I can enjoy my colleagues.
I had not felt
like I had had that in quite some time and this brought it to a head. Something had to change. I made it known in a way that I most certainly could have handled better. And while some necessary changes were made administratively
and logistically…I knew that I had
a lot of work to do from a heart standpoint. Whatever the circumstances, I am responsible for me.
Taking a step
back, I should have been aware of an idol working. Since this started I was not sleeping, I felt
resentful, I was irritable…need I go on?
It was then I “accidentally”
turned on a radio station in the middle of a program. Dee Brestin was speaking
about her own issues and the book I mentioned on Day 1. I ordered it.
I devoured it. I
took it to heart. I prayed over everything I
read. An abscess developed in my molar that could
not be treated right away. Not feeling
well forced me to have more down time and spend time with the Lord.
All I know is that since this happened...my intimacy with
Christ had increased abundantly. And if something causes that, can it be
a bad thing?
Work - it is a beast to be dealt with - hopefully you love your work.
ReplyDeleteI'll write more tomorrow, Debra...but I love my work and genuinely care about my colleagues. Knowing God divinely placed me there affirms so much. But there's a reason it is called "job."
DeleteOh gosh, the healthcare field is one big bad monster sometimes, is it not? Sounds like though....you were brought through the refining fire and listened to that still small voice.
ReplyDeleteWell, every area has its trials and challenges. Honestly, this is an incredibly meaningful position and work that I'm involved in. I'm blessed.
DeleteStill following along and learning.
ReplyDeleteI'll be in this school for a longtime...like a lifetime! :) Thanks for following!
DeleteAh, sometimes I learn more in pain.
ReplyDeleteFondly,
Glenda
I think growth only comes when things are difficult...unfortunately...or maybe fortunately!
DeleteFound you on the #write31days FB page! I think I may have to check out that book too! Like I need another book to add to my Kindle wish list! :P I love your blog title and verse. It truly caught my eye. Made me think of one of my fave Bible verses from the book of Psalms. "Weeping may come for the night, but joy comes with the morning." God finds a way to fill our hearts with joy, dont you think?!?!
ReplyDeleteHis joy is abundant...always there. It is our choice to tap into it or not. I'm so glad you stopped by. I will tell you that this book is not a slow read...and it includes questions for personal Bible study or if you want to have a small group (which I'm considering).
DeleteI know how you feel, have made some changes in my life outwardly, and am a work in progress with my Creator.
ReplyDeletexoxo