Three months ago, I was put to the test and sustained major spiritual heart surgery. I was very overwhelmed at work, having been in three days of mandatory training over two weeks. During that time a boatload of new applications and consults came in waiting for me. I tend to be very task oriented and focused, but I do enjoy having a little breathing room so I can enjoy my colleagues.
I had not felt like I had had that in quite some time and this brought it to a head. Something had to change. I made it known in a way that I most certainly could have handled better. And while some necessary changes were made administratively and logistically…I knew that I had a lot of work to do from a heart standpoint. Whatever the circumstances, I am responsible for me.
Taking a step back, I should have been aware of an idol working. Since this started I was not sleeping, I felt resentful, I was irritable…need I go on?
It was then I “accidentally” turned on a radio station in the middle of a program. Dee Brestin was speaking about her own issues and the book I mentioned on Day 1. I ordered it.
I devoured it. I took it to heart. I prayed over everything I read. An abscess developed in my molar that could not be treated right away. Not feeling well forced me to have more down time and spend time with the Lord.
All I know is that since this happened...my intimacy with Christ had increased abundantly. And if something causes that, can it be a bad thing?