Saturday, October 17, 2015

Thirty-One Things - Fear


I admit.  I do not want to write about fear.  I tend to ruminate enough without dwelling on my fears.  Yet I do recall a time when I was preparing over a period of months to make a major decision, to make a move.  I listed in my journal, all the things I was afraid of in making this decision.  Somehow putting those fears on paper made them more manageable.  Six months later, none of those fears became reality.

I tend to believe that life is good and embrace what is. I have had my share of hardships, and by God’s grace, I have overcome.  I tend to have concerns and anxieties, but rarely experience raw fear.  There are, however, things that do cycle in my mind.

I am always concerned about Caleb.  Who will be his advocate when I am no longer able or alive?

I am concerned about Lydia as she raises three boys on her own. How will she manage financially?  Will she continue to draw closer to the Lord and be committed to following Him?  Will she continue to make wise choices?

I am concerned about Noah and Elijah.  Will they continue to be secure in their relationships with their parents?  Will they find Jesus and walk with Him?  Will they do well in school and have secure futures?

I am concerned about Gabriel.  He has had to endure some challenges early in his first year but continues to progress.  I wonder if he will continue to do well developmentally.  The autism family history does loom in my head sometimes.  Will he be affected?  Will he find Jesus?  What will his relationship be with his father?

While I look forward to retirement, it also concerns me.  What do you do when the paychecks stop?  Do we have enough set aside to make it?  How long will our health continue?

And yet, I trust in the One whose eye is on the sparrow, for I know He watches me.


  1. I always find such comfort in hearing Jesus say yet words "Do not be afraid" throughout Scripture. He says those words quite a bit.

  2. His eye is on the sparrow and I know He watched me! Amen & Amen!

  3. Thanks Denise! I learned how to worry from a world-class-worrier - my mom. As I've gotten older, I've gotten better thankfully. I battle depression, especially winter blues. At some point along life's path, I realized that I only had so much energy to get things done & that worrying - ruminating on my fears - just zapped all the energy out of me. A frequent prayer that I have is that God will keep my faith in Him as pure as a child.

    1. I like your prayer! Having a 14 month grandson and seeing his wonder and trust gives me a tangible example how I should be each day.

  4. Fear use to be one of my greatest challenges and now "I'm No Longer a Slave to Fear; I Am A Child of God" runs through my mind after having heard and sang that song so many times since February. God used a horrific incident that happened in our neighborhood to jolt me out of living in fear. Don't get me wrong, it's not that I don't fear anymore. It's that I know who I belong to and I hand the fear over a whole lot sooner and I don't let it stop me like I use to do. My husband retired from the Marine Corps last October and I wondered if there would be enough money - it has been interesting and yet God has provided and He is going above and beyond on our behalf. Keep saving; keep praying; keep trusting; and look forward to the future. You are in God's hands sweet sister!!!!

  5. Great post. I love your photo/quote. It is true we as humans I think do tend to worry or fear far more than we should. Thanks for the reminder to trust God more.


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