When Trust Seems Absurd - The Battlefield of the Mind - Day 9

By the time it was 5:00 p.m. on September 11, 2001...when people were arriving back home from the workday...a nation was numbed, in shock, speechless, traumatized over the deplorable acts witnessed LIVE, either in person or on television, that occurred in New York City, Washington, DC, and Shanksville, Pennsylvania. I know for my generation, and those younger, it was a face of evil never seen before.

As the days trickled on, more and more details came known about the personal stories and circumstances...faces of people who never came home...children, some unborn, whose fathers, mothers are gone forever. I even learned a colleague of mine was on her way to San Francisco from Newark, New Jersey on Flight 93.

I don't know why I see children suffer and die from cancer, accidental trauma, and various forms of abuse regularly. I don't know why children are born with horrible conditions, sometimes incompatible with life itself. I don't know why my precious, only son, was born with severe autism and has never said my name and lives a life totally dependent on others for everything. I don't know why a woman who served Christ all her life, and was my best friend, is now enduring her 13th year with Alzheimer's. And I may never know.

But that is when everything and everything around you, as well as the thoughts within you, scream of such absurdity to trust in God...and that's when you must trust Him the most!

I used to sing this song by Twila Paris years ago...and the words still resonate:

Sometimes my little heart can't understand

What's in Your will what's in Your plan

So many times I'm tempted to ask You why

But I can never forget it for long

Lord what You do could not be wrong

So I believe You even when I must cry

Chorus:

Do I trust You Lord does the robin sing

Do I trust You Lord does it rain in Spring

You can see my heart You can read my mind

And You've got to know I would rather die

Than to lose my faith in the One I love

Do I trust You Lord

I know the answers I've given them all

But suddenly now I feel so small

Shaken down to the cavity in my soul

I know the doctrine and theology

But right now they don't mean much to me

This time there's only one thing I've got to know

Chorus 2:

Do I trust You Lord does the river flow

Do I trust You Lord does the North wind blow

You can see my heart You can read my mind

And You've got to know I would rather die

Than to lose my faith in the One I love

Do I trust You Lord

Chorus 3:

I will trust You Lord when I don't know why

I will trust You Lord 'til the day I die

I will trust You Lord when I'm blind with pain

You were God before and You'll never change

Do I trust You, do I trust You, do I trust You

I will trust You, I will trust You Lord

I will trust You Lord

I am grateful for a God I can trust even to others it seems absurd.