From the moment my feet hit the floor in the morning, it's off to the races in my work at the hospital. I have more "to do's" than I can fit in a day with competing priorities. And if I stayed until all was complete, I would never leave. And another word comes to mind: enough. What is enough?
Then I came across this quote as I ponder the word "peace."
I am only responsible for what I can accomplish in the day and that must be enough, as long as I have done my best. We are all given only 24 hours in a day and each are given varied responsibilities from God to accomplish what He brings our way. No more, no less. And He stands vigil while we rest in His peace to be renewed for the next day.
As I continued my contemplation of the word "peace," it saddened me to realize how little peace there is in our lives. As for me, I am always conneccted - either by pager, by cell phone, by computer, by cable news, by ongoing stimulation. I would not say that I am a loner, but I do know that I find the greatest peace in solitude. Or is it that I need the solitude to maintain my peace? Often when I take time to slow down, disconnect, and get off the merry-go-round of dailyness, I am able to see more clearly the gifts and mercies God has lavished on me multiple times each day. The clamour and demands and distractions of every day (don't even get me started on polarized political discourse that abounds), oppress my spirit, knowing Jesus has modeled what I need to do as reflected in multiple places in the Gospels. Jesus, the God Man, needed to withdraw to a solitary place to commune with His Father. How much more do I, a fallible, imperfect soul, need to do this? How can I see from His perspective, if I never take time out to look at Him?
Turn your eyes upon Jesus. Look full in His wonderful face. And the things of earth will go strangely dim in the light of His glory and grace.
Without this discipline, peace will continue to elude and the din of life will continue to oppress. And so I see the mercy, the gift, of being welcomed into the solitude of contemplation and time alone with the Lover of my soul.