I'm down to my last three days in my series...and there is still so much left unsaid.
One consistent theme that has God keeps bringing back to is suffering. Another beheading was broadcast yesterday. A couple was burned in a kiln as they were falsely accused of blasphemy for desecrating the Quran. An off-duty policeman and father was shot and killed down the road.
And I have a very very dear friend who is experiencing multiple losses...
I sit here in my living room. Ed is reading humorous emails and watching Monday Night Football. And I contemplate how short life is...and how little time we really have to make a difference. In light of that, what is really important about a football game or all the trinkets waved before our face during the commercials? To coin a phrase in the news of late: What difference does it make?
I remember a book written by Max Lucado called Traveling Light. I've never read it but the title is intriguing. I wonder how much we carry around or we allow to drag us around, because we refuse to let go. This year has been about letting go...releasing...and practicing humility. Trust me, I'm still in the beginner's class...
So what have I been learning to unload?
- Judgment and resentment
- Self-reliance
- A critical spirit
- The burden of others' opinions
- Irrational guilt, perfectionism, and legalism
- My idols (which I have to do daily...sometimes moment by moment...trying not to fondle them)
And how can I do this? Only by grace...grace that comes from renewing the mind. Reminding myself that I have blind spots and faults of my own that I cannot see. By praying Psalm 19:12-14:
Who can discern his errors?
Declare me innocent from hidden faults.
13 Keep back your servant also from presumptuous sins;
let them not have dominion over me!
Then I shall be blameless,
and innocent of great transgression.
Declare me innocent from hidden faults.
13 Keep back your servant also from presumptuous sins;
let them not have dominion over me!
Then I shall be blameless,
and innocent of great transgression.